Gary's Farewell, My pre-b'day & ZY catch-up dinner...

more to come...

really feels like something you would do...

tears...

''My Life has successfully been turned from mundane to pure torture...
Jacky Wu, CSI, House... its pointless watching them anymore''

if i tear, what does it mean? i never wanted to hurt you. never once was that on my mind. you know you are precious to me. you know you mean everything to me. i keep thinking about the pain i've caused you. i know it is difficult. yet i do have my concerns. i don't want you to fall sick. knowing that you're sick and not doing anything about it makes me understand more about the pain i've caused you. i know i'm selfish. all i ever thought of was for myself. to have time to live a life that i want. to do the things that i want. six years is a long time. i want you to understand that i have as much hard a time as you are having. i want so badly to go over to give you a hug to tell you that everything will be alright. but i know it would not help anything. i tear cause i know how much pain i've caused. i know whatever i do, i will never be able to make up for everything i've done to you. i try very hard not to think about you. not to acknowledge the fact that you're hurt. but i'm constantly reminded whenever i pass by. i no longer watch those shows. don't wanna be reminded. but everywhere i've passed by always seems to have bits & pieces of unforgettable times spent with you. i no longer eat lunch at the coffee shop. i've changed my jogging route. even the laptop i'm using has a piece of you in it. its tough to let go. i'm unsure if its the right thing i am doing. but as of now, if i still do not have an answer, i know full well that it would be unfair if i spoke with you. i know it'll hurt you a whole lot. i dont want to assure you that everything will be alright but i do want you to know that everytime you're hurt, i feel just as much, if not more for you. crying myself to sleep no longer means anything when the tears dry up. yet i'm reminded of it whenever a sniffle comes about. i love you. always will. i'm sorry it hurts but its something i have to go through.

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PICTURES FOR ALL THE MISSING POSTS...

COMPLIMENTS OF 笨蛋少爷。。。

CHUMMIES CNY...

CALLING ALL ST.ANTHONY'S PRI 6-3 CLASSMATES

Dear missing-for-a-long-time classmates,

I have worked hard to organise a primary school class mate gathering as I have tried to for the past few years to no avail. However, I hope in this new year, we will be able to catch up with one another and renew our freindships from our childhood days.

Here are the details...

Event: St. Anthony's Primary 6-3 Gathering 2009
Date: 15th January 2009, Thursday
Time: 7PM till late
Venue: Heeren

Please do inform me if you are free to enjoy a time of catching up!
E-mail me at melissa_meiyu@hotmail.com.
(p.s. this post is for those primary school ppl secretly reading my blog... kidding)

Warning
People who have already agreed to come, please don fly kite on me arz...
If you do, I tell you what will happen to you...
I will send your mobile number to the following:
1. Insurance Agent
2. MLM people
3. Church-goers from City Harvest

XOXO You know I miss you all... *smirk*

YOU"RE ON YOUR OWN OLD MAN...

MAHATHIR URGES US BOYCOTT
This is currently the most ridiculous headline that I have ever read.

KUALA LUMPUR - FORMER Malaysian prime minister Mahathir Mohamad on Monday called for a global boycott of the US dollar and US-made products, including Coca-Cola, in protest over Washington's backing of Israel.
Who the hell do you think you really are? See the words in caps? FORMER Prime Minister of which country? Malaysia? Hmmm... Malaysia.... *doubtful* What are you urging for? US Boycott? Really? Oh... ok...

Dr Mahathir, who during his two decades in power was a leading voice in the Muslim world, said people had to take action against the United States over its support for Israel, which is conducting a military offensive in Gaza.
Yeah, the leading voice in the Muslim world... GREAT! I totally support you man! The voice... *grumps! look what happened...*

'If you stop accepting US currency, the US can't trade and can't make any money, it will become very poor and it will have to stop the production of more and more weapons in order to kill people,' he told a press conference.
Erm... okie, I will stop trying to pay for my coke in US dollars but will it really make them very poor? Really? You're kidding right? Oh no, you ARE serious...

'We should not be buying all these weapons from the US, we can buy from the Russians if we must have aeroplanes and things like that,' he added.

'People must act... they won't die if they don't drink Coca-Cola.'
I'm a total Coca-Cola supporter. Yeah so I said, I'll stop paying for my coke in US dollars and start paying out in ringgit.

Dr Mahathir criticised the US for blocking a UN resolution calling for an end to the action by Israel, which has launched an air and ground offensive that has left at least 510 Palestinians dead, many of them civilians.
I definitely, totally agree with whatever you say but a boycott? Really? No, no... seriously...

The fiery former prime minister, who stepped down in 2003, said he did not expect a new US approach under Mr Barack Obama, who is due to be sworn in as president on January 20.

'I don't think there will be much change with regards to the policy of Israel. As you know, Obama went to Israel and asked for their support because a lot of voters in America are Jews,' he said.

'I can't think of anybody being as bad as (President George W.) Bush, it is the best of the bad choices,' he said of Mr Obama. -- AFP
You're on your own man, I just wanna enjoy my life with a coke bottle beside me.

http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking%2BNews/SE%2BAsia/Story/STIStory_322212.html?vgnmr=1

WHOSE JOB TO PEEL THE PRAWN?

Well, it definitely ain't my bloody job... Sometimes I do feel that I am rather lucky to have people to dote on me. A recent friendly complaint from my good friend made me realise just how pampered I really am. As well, what a 'da nv ren' I am...

So I went out with a good friend who is so used to being waited upon, and who now, waits (hmmm... I wouldn't use that word. 'Help' is probably much of a better word...), helps me with my dining chores ('dining chores' is a word I just came up with a minute ago... it just refers to the things you have to do to get to your food...). A very good example would be the action of shelling the prawn just to get to the succulent meat I ever so love, especially when steamed, or the action of removing the perfectly cooked chicken meat from its bones after its boiled to perfection.

So yes, I like my food easy and ready to eat. Everytime I'm at my grandma's place for dinner, I would have to do these chores myself. Shell the prawn, divide the meat into 3 portions, peel the duck meat, cut up the fishballs, shred the vegetables... my food has to be bite size, or smaller than bite size for that matter. It just has to be!!!

My good friend very nicely always shells the prawn for me even though he isn't used to it and though he is not my bf (that's exactly what a guy should do, no?) That day when we went out for steamboat, just a note, our table is filled with couples, so when it comes to the prawns, the girls, very automatically will shell the prawns for their bf. Only me... wait for people to shell for me...

The same thing happened at a wedding finner as well when I was with Kenny. A full table, 5 couples, arrival of steam prawns, girls shell the prawns. The only guy at the table shelling prawns is Kenny. So Kenny was saying, Its either the girls spoil my market or kenny spoil the guys market lo... I'm sorry darling, but since I'm so used to it, realising it does not make me feel any bad about it either.

I just didn't realise that there were so many understanding and automatic girls out there. Like some of my friends will cook for their husband or boyfriend. I really do think that only limited people will be able to tahan my attitude lo. Which guy will carry his gf's handbag anywhere and everywhere. Which guy would peel a chicken for his gf?

So a message to all guys out there who does not do the above-mentioned examples. Bloody shame on you! You better go home and think about how you've been treating your gf all along.

I do have one thing that I am seriously handicapped at though I've tried my freaking best to do something about it. I cannot open can drinks or bottles. I seriously fucking can't do it lo. That time I was so bloody thirsty so I went to buy bottled drink at Woodlands station, was suppose to meet a friend in town. Then all the way on the train, I tried to open it but bloody can't lo. So have to wait till reach town, see my friend then can get a drink. -.-

As Kenny always say, 'In a desert, even if you have a hundred bottles of water around you, you will still die of thirst'. But why would I be alone in a desert in the first place? Huh? Huh? Smart ass... *smug*

JUST PHOTOS!

Jia and Fwee Jie's 22nd Birthday cum X'mas Potluck Dinner
23 December 2008 - Tuesday @ Ning's House!

JAPANESE RESTAURANT LAUNCH

Darlings!

I'd be working this weekend for my company's restaurant launch.

Details are as such:

Event: Shokudo Streets Of Japan Official Opening
Venue: The Heeren Shops
Time: 11AM - 9PM
Date: 13 & 14 December 2008 (Sat & Sun)

If you are looking for a place to have a meal with your friends, please do remember to drop by and support! I'd be in an erm... (don't tell you...) you come support then you know le lo.. hahaha... At least drop by to try the food and see the place. The ambience is really nice de!

Give me a call when you are down k? I'd be erm... sashaying around the area...

Love ya'll! *Smacks a big wet kiss on cheek*

UNSPOKEN SILENCE

I am not lazy, as accused of, to update my blog. I have just been rather busy with work over the past few weeks. It really is tough to handle working over the weekends and working till 8pm or 9pm on the weekdays. It is just so darn taxing. I finally realised that I just cannot really be superwoman. But then again, I don't really like the idea of slowing down. I guess once the clockwork starts, it really is hard to slow down.

I do get confused looks when informed that I do not get OT pay when I work OT. Yes, I guess some of you might think that I am the stupid-est person on earth. Truth is, I am rather happy working in my current office. I get appreciated for my work, the colleagues are nice, my direct boss is nice, big boss is nice as well. Although you might still get the occasional black face from a female boss but it really isn't all that bad. Whatever it is, though I'm stressed and might have snapped, I'm still all the more thankful for the job at which I happy with.

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Let me tell you a story...

So this lady, obviously from motherland, you seriously can't miss out on that ever so delightful accent of theirs. It is so absolutely one of a kind, if you don't recognised that accent, you are just plain daft.

Anyways, this lady from motherland called me on my mobile. (This is when I seriously ponder: 'Hmmm... how did my number end up on the call list of a Eh Humm company? Did they get it through some underhand means? Hack another company's computer?) I'm sorry, you just can't blame me for pondering since they are such geniuses at doing such things.

They are such a magnificent country with countless number of talented people ever so eager to prove themselves that they've never never really about the process of doing it. Either that or they are just unfortunate that their parents just don't teach them well on the moral aspect. I do believe in the latter much, much more. It just seems so much more believeable don't you think?

Sorry for the deviating, I just have so many positive comments to praise their kind that I just can't really get a real grip on my story. These people just really moved me with their ever so pitiful antics. So yes, where was I? Oh, a nice voice called me on my mobile, addressing me ever so politely, talking to me ever so sweetly, I just so wished that I could have a voice like that. Not the accent though, the accent is irritating enough as it is without the screeching voice. So yes, the call... she introduced herself to me, identifying herself as a caller from some company that has set up countless 5 star hotels around the world and yes, they will as well be opening one in our homeland, so near, you wouldn't believe it. Its in Sentosa.

So she continued to ask me questions such as whether or not I have stayed in the resorts, chalets or hotels in Sentosa. Oh definitely after hearing her ever so sweet voice, just too bad I'm not really a person with dick, I answered her in a cannot be bothered tone saying that I have never and am not interested in whatever she wants to promote to me.

Much praise to the undying attitude of these patient 'cheenarian' telemarketers, she continues to probe, asking me more questions of which were met with my ever so shut-up-and-fuck-off attitude, trying to tell her that I'm not interested.

So I guess she decided to switch course and to talk to me about the free vouchers that their fine company is so generous enough to give out. Applaud the lady for her ability to entice me with two nights free stay at the hotel. I guess she probably thinks that everyone is an easy prey whenever it comes to gaining something. So I told her I'm not interested in the free stay and she asks me why? I politely replied, I'm just not interested. But apparantly she did not get the point, you know why? Cos you just have to know that all 'Cheenarians' have the my-ears-are-too-stuck-with-earshit to hear whatever you are saying. So she tries for the second time, telling me about the voucher and that she will send it to me home address.

I then told her once again that I'm not interested and again she asks why? You know, we could just do this for the next hour or so, with her asking me why and me saying not interested. So in the end I told her, '因为我不稀罕。' But then again she did not get the point, telling me that it is a good voucher for me to share with my friends and families and again she asks for my address.

People, please do get it into your head that you should never give your address to anyone especially a 'Cheenarian'. They are so smart, you'd probably never be able to imagine what they can do with it. So if this lady thinks that the two nights stay at her so called hotel is going to entice me into giving her my address, then I guess she really isn't as smart as her counterparts. So once again (damn pissed off this time) I told her very sternly that I'm not interested. So I guess her patience worn off after 5 mins, she proceeds to say: '没兴趣又不早一点说。' and then she puts down the phone.

See, this is what you get for trying to be polite and listening to a Cheena ass. You get a slap in your face. I should have just put down the phone when I first her skanky voice. Whatever it is, I still applaud all these people from motherland, they are just such geniuses when it comes to things like lying, creating pirated stuff and fraud.

For example, today's Newpaper talks about how talents from motherland creates set-top decoders. Whatever wall they meet, they always try to climb it to get over and usually all these things has to do with making money and getting other people into trouble. They'll probably realise one day that they are failing in telemarketing aspects just cos their accent stinks of dishonesty. I do believe, being such good actors, they will one day fit in with the Singapore accent and no one will notice. That is unless you don't see them in person. I guess one thing you can differentiate them from locals are their dress sense.

Their dress sense as of now is still a barrier for them due to the difference in taste, however I really do believe that they will be able to fit in as well, I would most probably say within the next... erm... 20 years? Oh and do you know how to differentiate a China printed tee and a printed tee bought from say the states?

Check the grammar.

That's all for now... kudos to the talents from motherland!