I'VE GAINED WEIGHT!!!

I am so fat now. I just feel like slicing the fats off me. Feeling so terribly full of hatred for myself. I should have ate a little lesser chocolates, snack alot lesser, jog a little more. Aaaarrrggghhh!! It just feels so frustrating knowing that I could have prevented weight gain. The feeling totally sucks big time. I am now a long way away from my near-to-perfect 38kg and now I am freaking 42kg!! WTF!! I was half praying that the weighing scale was like wrong but I really doubt it is.

I should just drink more water and eat one meal a day. I freaking ate Macdonalds meal last Thrusday just cos I got a craving for it and I am really full of regrets for my action (and its cos darling missed the exit to the Bak Kut Teh stall - you are the devil!!).

Just feeling totally irritated with myself.

My arms are just oozing with fats and my thighs... I'm just not going to talk about it. Darling took a picture of me with my humongous thighs in the foreground. So bloody insensitive lo. It just makes me feel worst than I already am feeling. Then he wanted to take a picture of me and forced me not to tilt me head. I have to tilt my head cos if not all the fats on my cheeks will be in the picture!

I probably guess that some of you who are erm... heavier than 42kg are possibly cursing and swearing at me right now, but its DIFFERENT!! You guys are taller than me. Anyway, I think I better end here before I get beaten up.

To end, here is a picture of me with my tilted face. Less fat cheeks. This picture still has fat cheeks but not as much as if I were to have it taken full front. Plus, it hides double chin well enough.

With lots of hugs (no hard feelings k?)